Not Typical Alcoholism
My post from Instagram (7/2/20) ...
"I don't talk about it...
It’s a subject I’ve touched upon but never shared about. Not even with myself, if that can even make sense?!
Alcoholism is within my blood & being adopted that’s all I knew growing up.
When I was laid off from my dream job in 09’, what was meant to be a mini “in-between jobs vaca” turned into a year+ of being at a bar for 4+ hours a day.
Admittedly, some of my fav memories & some of my biggest regrets came from drinking. But, over the years as I got older, I denied it, but my lows got lower.
I’ve made mistakes, hurt people I care about & wasn’t who I wanted to be 😢
I’m not sure why I share this, maybe as a form of self therapy & transparency.
My inherited alcoholism isn’t of need or ‘I get triggered’ type of thing. But, I do have a highly addictive personality so it’s more, ‘don’t start bc I can’t stop,’ deal.
You’ll see a new chapter opening up for me here. My solution. I didn’t quit in the sense of 0 alcohol ever, just turned the dial back 99.6%. <- The alcohol content in O’Douls is 0.4%🤣
For the past month+ I’m discovering solutions that work for me. I’ve discovered there’s a whole non-alcoholic section of beer at BevMo, Dave & Busters serves O’Douls and my mornings are getting earlier 🤗
Anyone else struggling? Struggled? Any advice?"